There was a strong pull coming from the direction of the elephant and my energy body responded to that and started to move towards her. My heart was being circled with a tunnel-like energy sent by her. It was that energy which created a feeling of “pull”. Just like someone holds our arm and pulls us in a direction, the elephant was doing the same but without any physical contact.
The fire has to be brought inside the house, instead of burning the town, to keep the house warm. The practise of Tantra is all about recognizing and harnessing this energy for a bigger outcome. It is an irony that India being the country with so much work in this field, is also the country that is suffering the most with lack of practice in that. If we could bring back the exposure in an appropriate manner, I feel we could have more fiery saints than demons of fire.
It felt like the entire Universe has a core. This is the center of that magnet. It constantly is pulling everything towards it and that pull is love. I realized that this centre was the centre for everything. This coincides with the centre of me, of the Sun, of the Moon, of all the planets, of the Earth, of you, of us, of the entire Universe and everything in it. For everything there is a common centre, and that is what connects us all. This is that navel of Vishnu from which everything emerged.
I found myself walking down a mountain path, through a narrow staircase curved out of rock. There were trees and mountains and hardly any human. I was a woman with shaven head and maroon cloth. My feet were bare and strong.
In one such session, the pain was increasing and so were the layers of current, consuming my physical body and dematerializing it in every step till the whole body was not felt. As I was present there just being a mass of energy I could feel no physicalness and so no pain. But I knew my physical body of course still existed and so did the pain. But to my surprise when I returned to my physical plane, there was no pain. Since it was gone, it could mean that we can easily remove any physical discomforts or diseases just by entering the energy body and adjusting the energy flow there. Probably thats what self-healing meant.
I was like an electric transmitter. I hoped no one touches me at this point, or I might just faint and this energy might break lose killing me or harming me and harming the individual who touches me as well. Because I was electrified. I felt I was radiating white light from my bigger energy body, with tremendous force.
As the whizzing of the energies happened, I felt I could simply get uprooted from the ground. I started concentrating on my root chakra while this energy dance went on. I started to say in my mind, "Mother please hold me. Even though I do not know what is to be done, you know the best for me. Hold me."
I realized I could not feel the sense of my physical body anymore. At that point from below my chest came out a flame of light from that emptiness, yellow but not harshly blazing. It was a steady yellow light, calm and gentle. I could very well recognize this light was me. And I wondered, does that mean everyone has a light or rather IS a light in another dimension? As soon as I thought that, several other similar lights emerged out from other people sitting in the meditation chamber.
I realized that even if my sense of body comes back soon, this light in that dimension is going to remain and play with other lights, interact and dance while I in my physical body continue my physical life.